The Heat or the Cold....?

Anymore, I can't really stomach this heat.
Or maybe it's the cold weather that makes my spine shiver.
To be honest, I can't really tell anymore.
Nothing's felt the same since you left.
I miss you.
Sometimes, in the middle of the night...
I'll jump awake, because I was dreaming of you.
And when I look around,
I still search for you for those first few seconds..
Until I remember.
You're gone.
I can't explain the way it makes me feel.
The emptiness.
The ache.
The want.
Sometimes, when I close my eyes,
It feels like I've caught a faint scent of your perfume.
I'll never forget that smell.
The way it would absorb into everything around you.
The pillows, blankets, sheets...
...My heart.
When you left, I didn't wash my pillowcases for a month,
Because there was a piece of you left behind.
I could bury my face in my pillows,
And be taken back to when you slept beside me.
What I'd give to have one night.
One conversation.
One heart to heart,
Even if it only lasted five or ten minutes.
Just one more moment.
One more moment with you.
I'd trade it all away,
I'd give it all up.
Just to see those eyes, that smile, the way your lips part and your tongue lashed out.
I'd give anything and everything,
For that one moment...
Maybe one day.
Maybe it's only a dream away.
And for once, I'm praying that this dream comes true.
Regardless of how long it's been, or what's gone down, I'll never be able to deny the fact, that..
....Everyday, I still love and miss you...