You know, I often sit here and wonder what the fuck is the point of having feelings, emotions, all of that bullshit? 98% of the time, it just doesn't even seem worth it to me, really. I mean, it's the same routine, every time. Catch feelings, date, fall, break-up, become even more bitter. Like, what the fuck? Really? How hard is it to be genuine with feelings anymore? I mean, I understand we're in a new "era" so to speak, but fuck. This shit is fucking ridiculous.
I mean, really. Can someone tell me what the fucking point of it is? I don't see one. Yet people still ask me all the time, "why don't you really show emotions?" Because, what's the fucking point? Why the fuck should I make myself feel vulnerable for NOTHING? There's no reason to, at all. There's just no point for me to make certain feelings known at all. It just results in me getting hurt, like usual. So fuck it, you know? I mean, it is what it is. Maybe there are still some genuine people out there, but who the fuck knows. I can't wait to get the fuck out of here.
Respect,
-(J!)
i just want to say hi. wish things were better for you and i know they will get that way. i said i wouldn't leave any comments but i'm leaving one now. delete it if you wish.
ReplyDeleteerm. hi. it is what it is, right? fuck it.
ReplyDeletei suppose so. nice writing btw. seems the more you go through the more you progres. was nice to read something you wrote tonight.
ReplyDeletei know i said we couldn't talk anymore but if you decide you ever just want to call and say hi or whatever, that would be ok.(not holding my breath)
it is what it is, I mean, I'm cool not talking to you, I've grown accustomed to it. you're doing good, I'm alive, it is what it is...
ReplyDeleteThanks for the comment on the writings, though. Progression is key, I suppose.